There are lots of things to think about.

Very preoccupied. Thoughts of completing the house. Buying stuffs from one place to another. Meeting a friend designer to have it customized as perfectly as I - We wanted it to be. Dying in anguish to have it finally completed. It's so near now I know.

Business. What should I do. Since I don't think I would be able to go back to work. My hubby refused so since I got hospitalized twice last year (coz of work?). Hmmmm... I'm to consider a lot of stuffs in what should I do. Plus I do have apprehensions of going back to work. One is health. The next one is change. These questions has been running through my mind. 'Would I be able to adapt to a lot changes and will I be able to cope up?'. I'm touched my husband told me that I have proven my worth and it's more than enough. He said we need to move on. I guess so... "second thoughts" plus I still have until June to decide about it.

Getting pregnant. For some this may seem easy as piece of cake. Ours took eternity. We haven't had any either. So I guess my race is still on. Why was it so difficult for us? and it is too stressful every time you'd see same people who are pregnant just a few years back. Are now again pregnant. Whew?! I don't know what are they doing. But an they just stop and give those couples who are dying in anticipation just to have one. Puh-lease... Sometimes I'd talk to our dogs telling them can you ask the dog god to transform you to a cute baby girl? How I wish it will happen. If only....